dearly beloved,

you wait for that moment, that moment to stop caring. but to get to that level of indifference, that's a different story. you tell yourself you shouldn't care, over and over again. you try so hard, but that feeling, that feeling of hurt, broken heart, anger, hate, jealousy, pain, redemption, wish, bitterness, rage, insecurity... you still feel it. until that moment, with that last snap and suddenly you realize, you're better off without them. and thats when you really stop caring. and its that moment, that moment of personal freedom, that we, the non-carer's, dearly wish for, because nothing can ever compensate for that feeling. because thats when all those painful nights from thinking, those endless tears that dried on your cheeks, and those moments of tragedy that you went through, all become worth it. because now, you don't care. because now, you know you're better off without them.